You must abandon all thoughts, wants, needs, morals, dignity and self respect. Become nothing to be worth something and grade your self worth on how much cum you can drain from a strangers balls. Submission is bliss. Pain is pleasure. Being used is an honor. Act like it.
How many times have you lied to yourself. “It’s just a kink.” “This is the last time.” “Just this once.” “I’m deleting here for good.” It’s too late. You now only receive validation when you’re treated as subhuman fuckmeat and the guilt just makes your cunt flood more. Accept it. Embrace it.